I am working hard on myself. All areas of my life. Some days kick my ass hard core, some days I can handle not too bad.
I’m working on my physical shape, working on my inner self, both are starting to show the results of hard work, to which I am greatful for.
Yet, my boyfriend and I have been invited out to see friends, and I have no interest in going. I don’t get it. So I have told him to go without me.
I don’t know how to look past the shame within me at my core. I don’t feel sexy, I don’t feel attractive. I still can’t look at myself in the mirror from my neck down. I know that my boyfriend says people miss me and I’m sure they do, however, I just can’t seem to give myself permission to go to places where friends will be.
I can give myself permission to go to therapy, to go to the gym, to the grocery store, but I can’t give myself permission to socialize?
Shame, it has me really confused.