Will Jodi Arias take the stand to save her life? Today is the last day of this 4 1/2 month court case. We have heard from Travis Alexander’s family, who have waited 5 years to speak to the jury, it was gut wrenching to hear his brother and sister speak. I can’t imagine what it must be like to hear the statements, read text messages, voice mails that appear to be cut and pasted to make Travis Alexander appear as a pedophile, as a sex addict and as an abuser.
I, like many people, have followed this trial of Jodi Arias. For those that don’t know, read my blog https://sexyonthedarkside.wordpress.com/2013/02/21/personality-traits-and-jodi-arias/.
I struggle with a mental illness, I am a domestic abuse survivor, I have been at rock bottom and I chose to work on my mental health and own what is my responsibility.
When I heard that it is clear that Jodi Arias has a mental illness, that to expect her to give an honest answer to questions asked, is unrealistic. I cringed. I cringed because that means that she doesn’t and won’t own anything she has ever done. Many people have expressed disgust at Jodi’s description of being a domestic abuse victim. While I am not Jodi, I do not know if anything she has said is minutely the truth. I can assume none of it is the truth, but that is my frustration speaking.
My feeling is that the work that has been done to promote the complexities of mental illness. The already strong stigmas associated with Depression, Schizophrenia, Anxiety, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, BiPolar 1 and 2, Borderline Personality Disorder, Eating Disorders, Social Anxieties, etc., will now be associated with criminals like Jodi Arias.
I’ve had a huge battle to get where I am in finally getting a diagnosis other than being called depressed, chronically depressed, and struggled to keep employment with the assumptions made about me. I don’t work but not because I don’t want to, but because my mental illnesses are complex and multi layered. Yet the stigma associated with already having a mental illness, already panic me at the mere thought of going for a job interview because I have no idea how I would describe the several years I haven’t worked for fear of being judged and deemed unstable to work with any company.
Now with the likes of Jodi Arias and her delusions that while she did murder Travis Alexander, she hasn’t owned that she did it because of jealousy, among many reasons. My fear is that when people hear I have a mental illness, that they will assume I have the potential to be a murderer, that I will be a criminal, that I will be unpredictable, such as Jodi is. No one knows what she will say, if she takes the stand today. No one believes she will apologize and be authentic in her statement.
I understand why no one would believe her. She has changed her story so many times, it is like watching a chameleon morphing to suit whomever is defending her. Her tears are for her not for what she has taken away, the consequences associated with the severity and brutality of the crime committed. The tears of for Jodi.
While I am not a proponent for the death penalty; I see it as the belief that two wrongs don’t make a right or an eye for an eye. Sure American tax dollars will be what pay for her to live in jail for life, perhaps in solidarity seeing that she appears to love being the center of attention, to have people talking about her.
I really, really hope that all the work that has been done, the years it has taken to speak, to educate and to promote that anyone who has a mental illness are a vital person to society, that although we (and I say we, not I) may be complex in our emotions, we are still quite capable to be employed in employment not just on minimum wage. For many years, I held and sustained employment as a legal secretary. That we are treated equally and fairly.