I am certain I won’t be attending group tomorrow morning. I won’t have any gas and I don’t have any gas money. The boyfriend doesn’t have any and he is out of town. Someone who does owe me money, I’ve not heard back from and the one other friend I could go to, I didn’t have the heart to speak to her about it. Especially with knowing she is also having her own financial issues.
So I feel frustrated and disappointed. A lot of negative behaviors of what I’ve done in the past to make ends meet come to mind. I’ve been known to steal, I’ve been known to sell stuff to pawn shops, and other things; but I’m trying really hard to not go down that road.
The appointment I am most concerned with is my psychiatrist, which is tomorrow versus the usual every 2nd Thursday.
What the hell am I going to do?