I have recently observed something in myself.
When I become overwhelmed and uncomfortable, I pull out my cell and play solitaire. Yes, it distracts me from being in the present moment, yes it stops me from figuring out why I am feeling uncomfortable and yes, I know it cuts me off from talking to people. I am the same with animals, if they are super friendly, I become engrossed with them, and cut out everything around me.
Its very hard to be present in a difficult situation. I’ve also been one to shy away in social situations and find a place where it is quiet, no one else around me. Do you do that?
I struggle with….
Self conscious / out of place
Butterflies in stomach / stomach churns
Voice goes shaky / body trembles
Dizzy / light headed
I have nothing interesting to say, I’m boring
People can tell how anxious I am
I’ll stammer / I’ll blush
I mustn’t look anxious
I look and sound stupid
You avoid social situations
You stay quiet to not make a fool of yourself
You always take a friend with you
You drink alcohol for courage beforehand