I wrote this out yesterday but I hadn’t blogged it out.
The darkness hovers over me, my secret is livid that I cracked him open. I am learning that fr a few days he subconsciously decides to upset my stomach where I am not hungry. Daytime mostly. Night time I feel anxious, I pace in my house, I say out loud “go away, just go away!” I try to eat a meal, but stop, I feel uncomfortable.
I know this is new for me. I honestly never expected or experienced many of these emotions or feelings. How long will I continue to feel this way? What do I do to get through this?
I’ve decided to stay focused on exploring these emotions, surround myself with people who understand what I’m going through and take things day by day.
When I exposed ED I admit I never thought through the result of breaking him open and 3 days later the waves of emotions are fierce.
But I will get through to the other side one way or the other.