I’ve been distant in my writing, I feel stuck.
I’ve been attending my eating disorder program and I have also looked up my former mental health group as there is a group that offers Body, Mind and Spirit connection. Right now I really feel I need this connection.
I’ve been pulled in many directions lately. Friendships have been severed because I can not have unhealthy behavior around me. There have been people from my past who have voiced not wanting to be around me in social events and yet I have chosen to accept that how they choose to behave is not my problem, only how I react is.
ED has his hold on me, perfection more expected than ever. In Art Therapy I noticed today I actually cut some images in shapes, but most of my work is still very straight and deemed perfect by him. ED’s critical voice comes to the surface especially when I am trying an outfit.
How do I deal with being pulled like an octopus’ tentacles? Each with some lesson to be learned, yet draining emotionally?