Changing your words

I always look for as much in positive words as I can. With the world in such turmoil, finding ways to keep the negative energy out, I visualize a pink bubble and I’m inside watching all those words and negative words bounce off.

Today in my inbox I receive daily messages from a site called The Universe, check out their link.

I really like that I get positive words daily.

Here is today’s message,

S, today don’t say or think “I’m tired”, “I’m hurt”, I’m angry”. Don’t even think or say “I’m happy”.

Instead, think and say I have chosen to be tired, hurt, angry.” Or better still “I’m choosing to be happy.”

You don’t get “hit” by feelings, you feel them based on your perceptions, based on your beliefs, and you believe as you choose.

You are your words.

The Universe

#thoughts # selflove #positive #words #mentalhealth


What Would You Do?

Good Morning Bloggerverse!🤗

December is a challenging month for me. I would use trigger, but for me it seems too easy and I mentally work better with challenge because you can overcome a challenge.

I have been sick since Oct. 31/18. Started as a virus and I am not a big rusher to the doctor kinda girl. One week later my left side my ribs were really sore, a trip to the e/r said that I was coughing too hard and pulled some muscles but he noticed on my chest xray some fluid in my right lower lung. I was told it was a mild pneumonia.

I was given some antibiotics, turns out I have an allergy to them. 4 days later I went to a different hospital as the rib pain was so bad I could barely move my arm.

Thankfully the pneumonia was improving, but my muscles between my ribs had been overstretched from coughing. This time I actually asked for stronger medication and was given 3 injections, talk about relief!

So, here I am 6 weeks later, I’m still in pain with my left side ribs, coughing has changed from one color to another 🤑 and my heating pad is my best friend.

Do I go back to the doctor’s again?

#health #body #mentalhealth

Conflict and Boundaries

#boundaries #volunteering #compromise #toomuch

I’m frustrated, the words are just going to fly out of my fingers.

During the week I pick up and drop off a child at the bus stop. I have to be there at 7am.

We are down to one vehicle, my car, as my partner’s is having some issues. I drive it for quick trips and that is not a problem.

Problem? This week my partner would like me to do a errand for him. Normally it would not be a problem, but I don’t know how I am to drop him off for 7am and be back in time for my job. If we leave super early, in rush hour, he would be at work very early outdoors.

I would be pushing it to get home in time for mine

The second is the errand which is over an hour away. I could go in the morning but later.

I also volunteer and at the moment my shift starts at 930am, so we compromise and I drop my partner off at his work and I would go on my way. But with my 7am start, I wouldn’t be able to be at my volunteer job til closer to 10am.

I dislike this feeling of what’s important to me, sliding away. I love to volunteer, there is a sense of pride when I am there doing what I do.

Birthdays and Holidays

Good Sunday Morning Bloggerland!!🤗

Today is my sister’s birthday. I am mulling over what to do.

To give a brief breakdown, my bio family is dysfunctional in all sense of the word. However my sister who was the youngest, I looked out for her and she me. But, like a lot of things in life, can and do change.

I made a decision earlier this year to not have my sister or mother on any of my social media simply because it was the only way to break the years of mental and emotional abuse. My sister has a life, but it has come with her own cycle.

1. I am afraid if I call her I will get the riot act (the eggs shells of past).

2. If I text her or send an e-card, texting seems so impersonal.

I asked my partner his thoughts. He said quite simply, the negative reinforcement that my BIL has created and the wall he has built between you two, if you call her, she most likely won’t answer because he will make her day awful, if you send an e-card the reaction may be the same and he said that he knows I would not be able to handle it if I didn’t hear a response.

Suggestion? To text her on her cell or social media.

I guess I have to do what I can live with as I may not get the response I want/need.

#family #health #birthdays #holidays #mentalhealth #confusion #love #sister

Carrot App

A blogger who is also a friend of mine, SunnyJane, wrote a great blog on a download application that I am going to give a try. I think any readers of mine should hop on over to her link: About The Steps.

If you decide to join, please use my personal bonus code when you sign up for Carrot and earn 50% more points on me! Plus we get to cheer each other on !!


How Do I Process?

Lately this time of year affects my mental health. I feel angry very quickly or I become manic. Yes, I am mindful of my bipolar, but when I had a conversation with my therapist it seems my brain is trying to process a lot.

Here is why…

I love volunteering with Children’s hospital. But the biggest deterrent I get is, “but it’s so far”. I tell people that for the once or twice a month I do it, plus its something I really love. I even had to explain that to my neighbor.

The time I have with my neighbor’s son in the morning until the bus comes, on those days unless pre arranged, I do not feel I have to rearrange my schedule.

I forgot to mention that I had a bad car accident in a dream recently, just before I woke up. It was a clear vision, C. was driving, it was dark and someone rammed my side of my car. To understand better, I was t-boned twice and rear ended all within a 6 month period.

I haven’t had any dreams like this since my last accident ( I just realized that today is an anniversary of my 2nd one).

The holiday season is a time for joy for some, but not for me. This year I turn 50 two days before Christmas, I don’t want any large party, that’s not me. C. will be away.

I have thought about getting more volunteer hours, but understandably it is encouraged by the doctors that the families go home if they can.

Lastly, although I am sure not, I have been a listening ear to those who have been going through Domestic abuse, some have gotten away and some have not.

I left a DV relationship and have worked long and hard in my recovery. I chose to listen to others as I know what it was like to not have anyone around me physically to support me.

#mentalhealth #bipolar #volunteer #holidays #domesticabuse #trigger

You Are Who You Have Been Looking For

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I came across this post in my Facebook feed this afternoon and for the first time, outside of my therapy, has anything come close to reminding me “I Am Who Have Been Looking For.”

Please, for anyone who is struggling with their identity, just know that no matter what society says who you “should” be, remember you know who you are and no one has the right to judge you or to try to manipulate you.

Leave a comment letting me know your thoughts.

#positive #love #mentalhealth #youtube