Lately this time of year affects my mental health. I feel angry very quickly or I become manic. Yes, I am mindful of my bipolar, but when I had a conversation with my therapist it seems my brain is trying to process a lot.
Here is why…
I love volunteering with Children’s hospital. But the biggest deterrent I get is, “but it’s so far”. I tell people that for the once or twice a month I do it, plus its something I really love. I even had to explain that to my neighbor.
The time I have with my neighbor’s son in the morning until the bus comes, on those days unless pre arranged, I do not feel I have to rearrange my schedule.
I forgot to mention that I had a bad car accident in a dream recently, just before I woke up. It was a clear vision, C. was driving, it was dark and someone rammed my side of my car. To understand better, I was t-boned twice and rear ended all within a 6 month period.
I haven’t had any dreams like this since my last accident ( I just realized that today is an anniversary of my 2nd one).
The holiday season is a time for joy for some, but not for me. This year I turn 50 two days before Christmas, I don’t want any large party, that’s not me. C. will be away.
I have thought about getting more volunteer hours, but understandably it is encouraged by the doctors that the families go home if they can.
Lastly, although I am sure not, I have been a listening ear to those who have been going through Domestic abuse, some have gotten away and some have not.
I left a DV relationship and have worked long and hard in my recovery. I chose to listen to others as I know what it was like to not have anyone around me physically to support me.
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