Having a mental illness challenges us in many ways. Self care, for me, is most important.
I have come to learn what helps to self soothe and why. For me incense (Indian spice scent), meditation, my salt rock remind me that I am safe. A warm shower, where I envision being in a waterfall as the warm water falls upon me.
What do you do for self care?
#love #survivor #Imatter #mentalhealth
Many a holiday season, I struggle with depression and not going anywhere. Like many, I would and have said many things, even to good friends who were holding get togethers Christmas Eve. I felt so much shame that was misplaced.
Shame really damages and can scar (I have mine and the struggle is real). Society still preaches that body image are a must if you want success. Perfection, I struggle with this regularly, until I was reminded that perfection isn’t real.
Ok, I digressed lol, the last few months I have been making conscious choices that help me. By making these healthy choices, my desire to go out socially has improved.
So to has this Christmas season. This year my partner was home, I felt really loved. We went to see family for Christmas dinner.
Being with my cousin and her family, an extension of what we were as children, a new generation full of silliness, laughter and stories.
I wouldn’t have changed a thing. It isn’t very often that dreams can come true.
#mentalhealth #christmas #family #health #love #cousins #joy
I always look for as much in positive words as I can. With the world in such turmoil, finding ways to keep the negative energy out, I visualize a pink bubble and I’m inside watching all those words and negative words bounce off.
Today in my inbox I receive daily messages from a site called The Universe, check out their link.
I really like that I get positive words daily.
Here is today’s message,
S, today don’t say or think “I’m tired”, “I’m hurt”, I’m angry”. Don’t even think or say “I’m happy”.
Instead, think and say I have chosen to be tired, hurt, angry.” Or better still “I’m choosing to be happy.”
You don’t get “hit” by feelings, you feel them based on your perceptions, based on your beliefs, and you believe as you choose.
You are your words.
#thoughts # selflove #positive #words #mentalhealth
Good Morning Bloggerverse!🤗
December is a challenging month for me. I would use trigger, but for me it seems too easy and I mentally work better with challenge because you can overcome a challenge.
I have been sick since Oct. 31/18. Started as a virus and I am not a big rusher to the doctor kinda girl. One week later my left side my ribs were really sore, a trip to the e/r said that I was coughing too hard and pulled some muscles but he noticed on my chest xray some fluid in my right lower lung. I was told it was a mild pneumonia.
I was given some antibiotics, turns out I have an allergy to them. 4 days later I went to a different hospital as the rib pain was so bad I could barely move my arm.
Thankfully the pneumonia was improving, but my muscles between my ribs had been overstretched from coughing. This time I actually asked for stronger medication and was given 3 injections, talk about relief!
So, here I am 6 weeks later, I’m still in pain with my left side ribs, coughing has changed from one color to another 🤑 and my heating pad is my best friend.
Do I go back to the doctor’s again?
#health #body #mentalhealth
#boundaries #volunteering #compromise #toomuch
I’m frustrated, the words are just going to fly out of my fingers.
During the week I pick up and drop off a child at the bus stop. I have to be there at 7am.
We are down to one vehicle, my car, as my partner’s is having some issues. I drive it for quick trips and that is not a problem.
Problem? This week my partner would like me to do a errand for him. Normally it would not be a problem, but I don’t know how I am to drop him off for 7am and be back in time for my job. If we leave super early, in rush hour, he would be at work very early outdoors.
I would be pushing it to get home in time for mine
The second is the errand which is over an hour away. I could go in the morning but later.
I also volunteer and at the moment my shift starts at 930am, so we compromise and I drop my partner off at his work and I would go on my way. But with my 7am start, I wouldn’t be able to be at my volunteer job til closer to 10am.
I dislike this feeling of what’s important to me, sliding away. I love to volunteer, there is a sense of pride when I am there doing what I do.
Good Sunday Morning Bloggerland!!🤗
Today is my sister’s birthday. I am mulling over what to do.
To give a brief breakdown, my bio family is dysfunctional in all sense of the word. However my sister who was the youngest, I looked out for her and she me. But, like a lot of things in life, can and do change.
I made a decision earlier this year to not have my sister or mother on any of my social media simply because it was the only way to break the years of mental and emotional abuse. My sister has a life, but it has come with her own cycle.
1. I am afraid if I call her I will get the riot act (the eggs shells of past).
2. If I text her or send an e-card, texting seems so impersonal.
I asked my partner his thoughts. He said quite simply, the negative reinforcement that my BIL has created and the wall he has built between you two, if you call her, she most likely won’t answer because he will make her day awful, if you send an e-card the reaction may be the same and he said that he knows I would not be able to handle it if I didn’t hear a response.
Suggestion? To text her on her cell or social media.
I guess I have to do what I can live with as I may not get the response I want/need.
#family #health #birthdays #holidays #mentalhealth #confusion #love #sister