I Have The Power

To say my life has been quiet is ridiculous.  I’ve been attending therapy more often, because I am being activated and having my therapist to talk to helps me find my way through the chaos.

She keeps saying through our sessions that I have the power and can say no anytime I want. It feels very uncomfortable and scary. I said yesterday that I feel like one half of my body is my little girl and the other half is the adult.

She also wanted to put it out there that a lot of my dark emotions are historical, meaning they aren’t in the present. She recommended to me that when there comes a time and the emotions are so intense, look inside and see if they are present or historical. If they are historical, you can put them in a box, not to be forgotten, just not to be dealt with at that moment.

How does one say “I have the power” or I take back my power to those who have damaged you deeply? It sounds easier than it really is. Emotional and mental abuse is very damaging on a long-term scale. It is going on 5-6 years of steady therapy and group work to help me get my rage to a tolerable level. I still don’t cry, most of the time I abuse myself with my eating disorder, but if it is my animals then I know I will become very emotional.

I plan on writing more, and seeing how that helps me.



When Trust and Responsibility are broken

I write this here instead of my rescue blog because I will be writing about Trust and Responsibility, both of which apply to my mental health blog AND my animal rescue blog.

I volunteer for animal rescue, namely dogs. I have experienced two rescues who have turned what is supposed to be a positive experience into a breaking of trust and responsibility.

When rescue organizations take on dogs, as part of their agreement, regardless if the animal needs medication, spay/neuter/ or surgery, it is the responsibility of the rescue to cover those expenses. Right now a rescue I helped a dog named Zeus receive surgery by fundraising, has closed shop and is no longer taking responsibility for the expenses for Zeus’ surgery or to the spay as well as behavioral issues of another dog I have been made aware of. Phone calls, emails, and text messages have been sent without a reply. This is completely unacceptable. I have been working with other people today to figure out the necessary steps so that Zeus and other dogs who require medical attention, receive it.

The rescue community does not look kindly to those who seek to take advantage of fundraising because those monies are raised in good faith and are recorded on the account to show coverage of medical expense. In Zeus’ case, only $1,000 was shown, and the fundraising raised was $3,200. At this time, there is no accounting of the other funds.  Today a new fundraiser has been set up for Zeus because he now needs his second surgery, things will be handled very differently so that all involved will see where the fundraising monies went to.

Dogs coming into rescue don’t come just from where I am located, they come from all over so it needs to be noted that some non ethical rescues are going to walk away from their dogs no matter where they come from. Ethical rescues don’t, no matter where their dogs come from. Isn’t it time to focus on how rescue is done rather than from where?

I write this blog because I feel it is very important that people know what they should be aware of. I know there are other rescues out there, some are called “flippers” which means they take on dogs strictly for the money. They do not check out the applicant or their home in screening. Some have been known to adopt “right off the truck” so to speak.

Below is a message on the Go Fund Me Page for ZEUS. Please share his link or if you can, please donate as ZEUS is in real need for the surgery – https://funds.gofundme.com/dashboard/rc8y8z4

I am a volunteer, I am not affiliated with any rescue, I have stepped up to help with running Zeus’ Fundraising.He used to be with a rescue but they shut their doors and Zeus’ foster family have been left to attend to Zeus’ surgery out of pocket. This is unacceptable.

If you can help share this page, or the Go Fund Me Page, or Donate, it would be greatly appreciated!

ZEUS - Marion

Overwhelmed and feeling Depressed

GreenWelcomeI know I am remiss in keeping my blog up to date. This week has been busy with group dialogue and learning. Between learning how to ground when you feel anxious, to where on a scale of 1 to 10 not to mention learning what defense mechanism that may function with my eating disorder, I just needed some time to process and by process I mean, not look at anything til today.

I’ve been reading 50 Shades of Grey and I know why I am, it is to escape and let my brain relax. I’ve read books 2 and 3 and saw the movie on Valentine’s Day with my love. Now, I’m reading Book 1. I know, I’m weird lol, but for me now I can visually see the actors in all their parts, plus I can see what the movie didn’t include.

I digress.

I hit a car last weekend. I should reiterate, I hit the bumper as I was reversing backwards to the road, I didn’t realize at first and when I was notified I went and returned to where it happened. It will be handled though my insurance, just not thrilled that even though my liability will take care of everything, it does mean it will go up :(.

Yesterday, I was short fused and I could feel it. Everything has been irritating me and I hate it when this happens. Especially when I don’t know exactly why.

I am worried about one of my dogs. She’s 13 and has started showing signs of what I am quite sure is a seizure. They have happened when I’ve been there and have attended to her. She has been in good health to this point, albeit a cough, but otherwise fine. I will be making arrangements to have her to the vet to get a blood test to see if she is lacking anywhere in nutrients; but at this point I’m confident this is neurological; which can be treated usually with medication and a change in some areas of her diet. Given she is fed a raw diet, its usually just a slight adjustment.

I hope you all are having a great weekend!


November is Adopt a Senior Month

For me, I love having an older dog. Maybe its because they are so often forgotten in the over populated shelters, or perhaps it is because they need love and attention, like I do. Either way you look at it, as much as I love puppies, they are a lot like having a toddler and honestly I don’t have the energy all the time to be watching for every little thing they can and will get into.

Below is a list of reasons why it is an excellent idea to adopt a senior dog.

10 Great Reasons to Open Your Heart to a Senior Pet

  1. Older dogs have manners. Unlike puppies, many grown-up dogs have spent years living with a family and being socialized to life with humans.

    They may have received obedience training and respond to commands like Sit, Stay, and Down.

    Many are house trained and it takes a matter of hours or a day or two to help them learn the potty rules in their new home.

  2. Senior pets are less destructive. Most older adoptive pets are well past the search-and-destroy phase.

    You don’t need to worry so much about finding your favorite pair of shoes or a table leg chewed beyond recognition. Chances are your senior kitty has no urge to overturn your potted plant or shred the handmade quilt your grandma gave you.

  3. What you see is what you get. A senior pet holds no surprises as to how big he might get, what color his adult coat will be, or whether his hips will be healthy. A senior pet comes to you with his own history, which makes his future much more predictable than that of an 8-week old puppy or kitten.
  4. You can teach an old dog new tricks. Adult dogs can focus on the task at hand (unlike many of their much younger counterparts). If your adopted older pet needs to learn a few things in her new life with you, not to worry. Enroll her in an obedience class, contact a trainer, or go the do-it-yourself route. Older dogs are more attentive than puppies, and more eager to please their humans.
  5. You can custom order your senior pet. If you’re looking for a short-haired cat, for example, or a kitty with no history of dental disease, you can search until you find an older pet with exactly those attributes. If you already have a cat and need your adoptive dog to get along with cats, again, you’ll have a much better chance of finding an older adoptive dog who is a perfect companion for your family.
  6. You can adopt a purebred pet if you want. If you really love a certain breed of dog or cat, chances are there’s a breed rescue club that can point you in the direction of older purebred pets in need of homes.
  7. Senior pets are great company for senior citizens. Many elderly people find the calm presence of an older pet very comforting. They appreciate having a companion who is also ‘getting up there’ in age, doesn’t mind hearing the same stories again and again, and is content to move through life at a slower speed.
  8. Older pets are relaxing to hang out with. Senior dogs and cats have all the basics down and aren’t full of wild energy to burn. Because you’re not constantly chasing around or cleaning up after your older pet, you have a lot more time to spend finding fun things to do or just relaxing together.
  9. Adopted senior pets are grateful for your kindness. Somehow, older pets seem to know you gave them a home when no one else would. Many new owners form a close bond very quickly with their senior dog or cat, because the pet shows them a level of attention and devotion that is unique to older adopted animals.
  10. You can be a hero to a deserving dog or cat. Almost without exception, people who adopt older animals feel a special sense of pride and purpose in opening their heart to a hard-to-place pet. Doing a good thing really does make you feel good!

Article provided by http://healthypets.mercola.com/sites/healthypets/archive/2012/02/15/benefits-of-adopting-an-older-pet.aspx?x_cid=20141101_ranart_benefits-of-adopting-an-older-pet_facebookpets


Meet our girl Tika, she is our adopted 12 year old Chi/JRT


Our other adopted sweetheart is Lucy, she is 8 years old

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Our boy Blaze who is 9 years old

Have a great Sunday! Please remember to ADOPT NOT SHOP!!

Connection between Values and Self Esteem

values_sign-238x300If this writing seems different, that’s because it is; my laptop is not co-operating so I’m doing this from my cell.

Yesterday in my weekly group season we went over the connection between values and self esteem. I admit I was confused about this, but with asking a lot of questions and listening, I think I walked away with a piece of my personal puzzle piece loosened, which for me is a good thing, as it means I am challenging my core beliefs.


Values are statements about what we want to be doing with our life: about what we want to stand for, and how we want to behave on an ongoing basis. They are leading principles that can guide us and motivate us as we move through life.

Values are here and now, goals are in the future

Value never need to be justified

Values are freely chosen

Values are here and now. In any moment, you can choose to act on them or neglect them. Even if you’ve totally neglected a core value for years or decades, in this moment right now, you can act on it. In contrast, goals are always in the future. A goal is something that your aiming for, striving for, and working toward. And the moment you achieve it, it’s no longer a goal.

Because of this, people who lead very goal-focused life often find that it leads to a sense of chronic lack of frustration. Why? Because they’re always looking to the future and continually striving to achieve the next goal under the illusion it will bring lasting happiness or contentment. In the value-focused life, we still have goals but the emphasis is on living by our values in each moment. This approach leads to a sense of fulfillment and satisfaction as our values are always available.


  • To lose 10lbs of weight is a goal – eating healthy is a value
  • To go to the gym is a goal – caring for your body is a value
  • To have a big house is a goal – supporting your family is a value
  • To get love and respect from others is a goal-being living and respectful is a value
  • To feel less anxious is an emotional goal – acting courageous is a value
  • To feel happy is an emotional goal – being warm, open and friendly towards others is a value

Daddy Says…..

Daddy has called Mama
“dog whisperer” a few times. We was wonderin’ what he meant by dat so mama asked him. 

Daddy says that mama understands animals deeper than just the surface. Hmmm, so we as a pack barked about dis and we all agreed. Mama does have dis special way of understanding all animals. She always seems to know how to lub us, she always seems to know what we all need. She is one of the bestest people when it comes to doing a rescue. She just knows what we need when we first meet. 

Before you assume that mama runs her pack by the man who is known as the “Dog Whisperer”. She doesn’t, she uses her instincts and common sense. Mama doesn’t believe in using force, she believes in using love and understanding. When we are scared, she uses her soft voice. When we are angry, she uses encouraging words and will wait things out til we aren’t angry anymore. When she is teaching us something, she uses one word commands. She isn’t afraid to come down to our level whether it be on grass or in dirt and  play with us; she sits up with us at night when we aren’t ourselves. She loves to give cuddles and snuggles, never worries if we get dog hair on the bed.

May you all be blessed to have someone who lubs you as much as our mama does. 



Jingles wants to meow!

MEOW!! Finally, Jingles (dat’s me!) gets to have my say on Caturday! (dat’s what we call it around here, heheh). This is a picture mama took of Moi (I’m the grey and white one with Cinder when he was a little smaller).


So we were wondering, what do all our cat pals do on Caturday? See in our house mama and daddy won’t let us outside! *pout*. We meow and tell them dat their are birds and stuff out here and we want to go and say hello to them. We have watched on that box type thing that shows pictures (mama says it is a tv, whatever dat is), of this cat who chases little a yellow bird. Image

We always meow lots and paw the tv when we see these two! They are so bery bery funny!

Hmmm, we also drive mama crazy with running up and down the hallway bery late at night! She then gets even madder when we jump the wall and bounce off of it. But hey, we have springs that need to be stretched *snickers*. In the morning, Cinder likes to sit at one of the windows, meow for it be opened. Don’t ya just lub how he has trained mama *snickers*


Well, that’s our message today! Have a pawsitively beautiful day!